Man, oh, man ... this has been a wild season. When I wrote this statement I was referring to spiritual death, but let me tell you, it applies to natural death, as well.
I love to pray, intercede and take assignments to pray for others from The Lord. But I didn't take an assignment He offered me in mid-September and someone died. I had to confess and repent, and I learned a hard but anointed lesson from the experience.
Last month I had a dream that someone I knew died. I said a quick prayer and moved on. About a week later I learned via Facebook this person I'd dreamed of was in the hospital. I got with Z because he's my resident intercessor and we decreed she would live and not die. The whole week she was in the hospital I sent up these little piss ant prayers for her healing but I didn't put much heart into it. And I'm not even sure why I didn't pray like I know how to and like I normally pray. I don't have a valid excuse for not putting my all into praying for her. I keep trying to think back to what I was doing that I didn't focus and pray, but I can't come up with a reason. It's like that span of time is blocked in my mind and I can't get back to see my thought process. As I said I have no real excuse. She died early morning October 3.
After I repented, God restored me immediately (2 Samuel 12:13) and He began to teach me how to behave from then on, how to move forward. I confessed this sin to a mentor - and it's technically not sin because it was an invitation that I declined, but I felt I'd sinned because I know I'm called as an intercessor and that God would've delivered her if I had prayed. So my mentor told me not to agree with guilt because there was nothing I could've done.
I didn't and don't agree with guilt at all. But one thing The Lord told me was that we can always do something, and what He taught me to do caused me to vow to Him that I'll never let another living thing die unless He has determined their days have been fulfilled. I unpack this in detail for the activation of faith in my new book, O Lord, Increase My Faith: Building Focused, Forceful Faith that Overcomes.
We know that what the enemy means for evil God uses for good and that He works all things together for my great. So now I have another testimony of redemption, restoration and of God renewing my mind with greater resolve to war against the enemy of our souls. Someone died, it wasn't my fault, it was the enemy's but I'm stronger, wiser and have more authority and anointing as a result. That's beauty for ashes.
I trust that you can forgive me, too. If you can't ... well, you know your sins won't be forgiven either. That's The Word. I also want to encourage you to learn from my mistake and take prayer seriously (James 5:16). All the time. Especially in the times you don't think it's not a big deal. It could be life or death for someone.
I beseech you, dear ones, to rejoice always and pray without ceasing (1 Thessalonians 5:17). I bless you in the Name and authority of Yeshua ha'Mashiach The Messiah of Israel and the world.
P.S. Here's a way to pray for someone to continue living:
I declare the enemy is a murderer, liar and thief. It is written: I can decree a thing and it will be established for me and light will shine on my ways. By faith in this infallible Word I decree _____ will live and not die and declare the glory of The Lord. I bind all death plans against _____ and loose Holy Spirit because He is greater in us than any enemy in this world. Amen.
Zari Banks, M.Ed
Zari is an author, teacher, mentor, speaker and entrepreneur.